After a year in the new job, God placed what seemed like a dilemma (and to be really vulnerable and honest) felt like a trick in front of me. Standing on his word and knowing God’s character I knew it couldn’t be a trick but it really felt like it. It was a battle and a struggle to remain in trust of God’s character and not slip into fear…I’m just being honest. I promised I would.
The job I left in the biggest act of faith I have ever made, called and had a new job offer.
If you know me or have followed me at all, you know this job literally drained the health and life out of me. I placed my life completely on hold and only over the last year truly discovered how true that statement was. At the new job I was given the time and space to come out of the fog and look around at what had changed in the five years while in the old job. This new job was a resting and recuperation safe haven. God knew exactly what I needed. The job was incredible in teaching me in my beloved career path and provided priceless experience. The employers quickly became such sweet entrenched family to me who also provided incredible examples of faith and love as well. The ask, the offer, to return to the old employer which had been such a desolate, disturbing, thief of an experience seemed crazy. Seemed impossible.
I felt insane even considering the option, but also could not keep from doing so. After much prayer and consultation with trusted Christian family and friends I eventually accepted the new position with the old employer. To be honest, during the decision process there were many tears (not happy ones….confused ones, sad ones.) I really did not know what the choice was going to be until the extended deadline I requested for consideration, came due. I accepted, I couldn’t explain why. I can now.
This is the biggest act of obedience I have ever made. I did not get my neon sign telling me to say yes, but I still knew that was the choice. The character in me reflected the character in Him and I acted out of the seed planted in me….even without conscious awareness…like muscle memory.
Shortly after being in the new position, God called me out and into a 21 day fast
(Isaiah 58) specifically for clarity. So I complied. I chose to forgo something in my everyday life that without it I would have a noticeable thought or desire to have back. That desire/moments of desire got turned into effort to seek God, to take steps to prepare and establish efforts to serve God/others, volunteer for more service in the church, and most of all to specifically intentionally receive my strength and energy directly from God each day.
The day after my fast had ended God took the opportunity to provide the clarity and confirmation on my new position and the choice I made to accept it.
God will provide the opportunity to perform and repeat acts of obedience in order to use such consistency of praise and stamina in trust to restore what has been willingly surrendered and certainly those things which have been stolen from your life to be more than doubled what they were when lost once restored (II Kings 4 – Shunammite Woman and II Kings 8.)
God has been providing me opportunities over the last several years to willingly surrender my dedication, hard work, attention (comparable to room and board II Kings 4) and to continually act in obedience to him as I am offered to chance to do so. Opportunities to praise him and confess life and wellness even when things look beyond myself and lifeless (II Kings 4:26.) He is using it and about to restore all of the sacrifices (and for my closest friends and family, the most exciting part of all: those things stolen in the past!!!! Eeeeekkk! Suitcases/picture frame) I have made.
I can not tell you the depths of Joy I have. It is like I have been standing at the gate waiting for permission to enter for ages and God just leaned over and whispered “Get Ready.”
The job I left in the biggest act of faith I have ever made, called and had a new job offer.
If you know me or have followed me at all, you know this job literally drained the health and life out of me. I placed my life completely on hold and only over the last year truly discovered how true that statement was. At the new job I was given the time and space to come out of the fog and look around at what had changed in the five years while in the old job. This new job was a resting and recuperation safe haven. God knew exactly what I needed. The job was incredible in teaching me in my beloved career path and provided priceless experience. The employers quickly became such sweet entrenched family to me who also provided incredible examples of faith and love as well. The ask, the offer, to return to the old employer which had been such a desolate, disturbing, thief of an experience seemed crazy. Seemed impossible.
I felt insane even considering the option, but also could not keep from doing so. After much prayer and consultation with trusted Christian family and friends I eventually accepted the new position with the old employer. To be honest, during the decision process there were many tears (not happy ones….confused ones, sad ones.) I really did not know what the choice was going to be until the extended deadline I requested for consideration, came due. I accepted, I couldn’t explain why. I can now.
This is the biggest act of obedience I have ever made. I did not get my neon sign telling me to say yes, but I still knew that was the choice. The character in me reflected the character in Him and I acted out of the seed planted in me….even without conscious awareness…like muscle memory.
Shortly after being in the new position, God called me out and into a 21 day fast
(Isaiah 58) specifically for clarity. So I complied. I chose to forgo something in my everyday life that without it I would have a noticeable thought or desire to have back. That desire/moments of desire got turned into effort to seek God, to take steps to prepare and establish efforts to serve God/others, volunteer for more service in the church, and most of all to specifically intentionally receive my strength and energy directly from God each day.
The day after my fast had ended God took the opportunity to provide the clarity and confirmation on my new position and the choice I made to accept it.
God will provide the opportunity to perform and repeat acts of obedience in order to use such consistency of praise and stamina in trust to restore what has been willingly surrendered and certainly those things which have been stolen from your life to be more than doubled what they were when lost once restored (II Kings 4 – Shunammite Woman and II Kings 8.)
God has been providing me opportunities over the last several years to willingly surrender my dedication, hard work, attention (comparable to room and board II Kings 4) and to continually act in obedience to him as I am offered to chance to do so. Opportunities to praise him and confess life and wellness even when things look beyond myself and lifeless (II Kings 4:26.) He is using it and about to restore all of the sacrifices (and for my closest friends and family, the most exciting part of all: those things stolen in the past!!!! Eeeeekkk! Suitcases/picture frame) I have made.
I can not tell you the depths of Joy I have. It is like I have been standing at the gate waiting for permission to enter for ages and God just leaned over and whispered “Get Ready.”
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