Happy

So there has been this thing, this bubbling up thing, this growing rapidly thing, in my spirit for the last few weeks…and I thought I might need to meditate, study the word, and get tons of scriptures together to infuse into what I share (…I don’t know why…to give it more weight…who knows.) Tonight I got to share some of it with a couple friends and the itch to share here was incredible. I toiled with it for my entire drive home…study in the word, refine, meditate, and then share OR just let my excitement bubble out onto the page right now however it were to come out…..I think you know what won.  

So nice side note: I attempted to start studying for this and read 1 Corinthians 2 first thing…If you go read that you might figure out why letting this all bubble out onto the page won ;) …(and, hey!, look at that ,I did get a plug in for reading his word. hehehe)

            Part of the promises God has spoken into my life into the past months has been that he would restore my lost childhood – the care free feeling, the trust beyond logic, provision without earn or striving, etc. I believe him; however, because I missed out on this I can’t even begin to understand it.

            The last three or four weeks God has been doing some amazing stuff.

1.      He is bubbling an intense and immense amount of Joy into me (and hopefully soon, through me to others)

2.      He is giving my soul/spirit a knowledge and wisdom beyond what my mind can grasp

3.      He is giving me glimpses into the things he has been doing behind the scenes through my long wait and showing me progress I have made as well as progress he is nearing completion in me

Ok, elaboration:

Joy

            For the last few weeks as I enter into the presence of God in worship there has been a change. I have worshiped using my tears for a long time and have chuckled or given a little giggle here or there on a regular basis, but the last few weeks in corporate worship, I have caught a Joy and giggle so deep and bubbling over that it lasts an entire song or an entire worship set…and it is getting deeper and longer! Last Sunday I almost had to leave during the sermon to go outside and just laugh (instead I stayed to listen…glad I did…and let tears of Joy roll down my face.) Then tonight during my drive while listening and singing worship, I couldn’t control my laughter. I am so satisfied and content and happy and joyous! I have never wanted to share something of/from God with others so badly in my life!! I pray that this will spill out of me (while being filled back up) onto everyone who even looks at me/talks to me/touches me/etc. I want them to know this, to know him, to experience this goodness of his!!  This weekend I even had a chance to co-minster laughter and lightheartedness into another (best-time ever) which God had the ability to multiple plan/purpose the event to also serve as a confirmation into my experience of all this Joy…aka he takes our tears (and specifically the vast ocean of tears that has defined my life up until now) and turns them into a pool of laughter (and specifically a joy beyond my words and certainly my containment!) So much so he is doing this, that my worries are washed away. My worry or focus or fear of:

-Where will I move

-When does God want me to move

-Where and how will I serve him

-When and with whom will I have a family with

-How will my debts and needs be paid/met or when

Has turned into one:

*How do I handle joy so deep, sustaining, powerful, amazing and invigorating beyond my wildest imagination!?!  How do I give it to every single person I ever meet!?! My brain can’t comprehend the amount of blessings, joy, and satisfaction he is about to bring into my life!!! EEEEEKKKKKKKK!!!! :D

Secret Worker Bee

            God has been maturing me and everyone around me for all the amazing things he has set for my career, home, finances, family, mate, church, ministry, friends, community, etc. He has been revealing to me that he has taken me from a place of not giving myself or his plans enough value to wait for his timing and into a place of delighting in my assuredness in him. He is bringing me out of a time, where with the truest and best of intentions, I have tried to help his plans along and the results were delays, more waiting, and even devastation. So beautiful that he has taught me to get out of the way so he can make giant strides forward in ALL the things he has for me, but he is a relational God and he doesn’t leave me out…he is using me to speak into others and develop the me he has for all those that are planned to be a part of my life…AND developing them to be the people he trusts to gift me to. 

AND….Drop it Like itz Hot…Continued:

Maybe his perfect plan allowed me to faint so that I would pay closer attention to Isaiah 40:31 and take root in and rest in the truth that the Joy of The Lord in my strength and my strength will be renewed so that I may walk forward into the blessings and plans God has for me. Finally time to step into all he has! I mean come on, I do tend to ask for Neon Signs…what gets your attention faster or better than face planting into the ground in front of a hundred people. ;)

I am all aboard for the sling shot into the blessings he has been arranging for many years now!! EXCITED!